Sometime during the last several years Josh and I decided it was time to start our own family. And man were we excited! Josh is a self proclaimed "planner" and I can't remember the last time I didn't run into something full-steam ahead, so true to form we moved full-steam ahead and by the time we were "trying" (as people call it) we were about as ready as possible. We even began collecting nursery items. What we weren't prepared for was my first miscarriage. We remained hopeful for a long time, but after a year it became clear that we were entering the completely foreign territory of infertility. And let me tell you, it's a real bitch. The rest of the details aren't so important now, all the trips to the doctor, the sonograms, the meds, the hormones! and uuuuugh.... you get the picture. So it's about moving forward. And we are moving towards adoption.
Now, we've only taken some baby steps (pun intended) in this direction, but it's been a relief to begin a new chapter. IVF just isn't for us. I mean, anyone who knows us immediately bursts into laughter at the idea of me hopped up on hormones while Josh tries to stay calm and give me shots. For those of you that don't know me, I'm loud and loudly expressive constantly and Josh craves a peaceful life without chaos (it's a miracle I ever got that man to marry me. Really. He has the patience of a saint). Plus he is crazy afraid of needles. So yeah, IVF isn't happening. Not to mention that we have always been open to adoption.
I know the road ahead is a long one, with it's own challenges and obstacles, but we remain hopeful. and though we move ahead with much trepidation, we move ahead with much optimism. We are not alone in this journey so share your stories! Join us if you will, because you know there is no way I can keep all these exciting (and stressful) events to myself!